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Does It Really Just Happen??


I am in such a mood. Yesterday my mom was supposed to come over to watch the kids. I had an appointment to get my newest tattoo touched up. Well she called me 20 minutes before my appointment to let me know she wasn’t going to come over!! She was tired after a trip to AC with my sister. Well she could have called me in the morning to let me know….not 20 minutes before I had to be at the shop. Then she called today (I didn’t answer the phone) and in her message she said she was sorry but things like that “just happen”. Seriously?!? So she just happened to end up in AC? No she made an effort to get there. If she had called me earlier I could have made other arrangements for a sitter. But with such short notice I was forced to reschedule. The reason this bothers me so much is becauseย my mom does this often. She keeps me waiting when she says she’ll be “right over” and sheย will call last minute to change plans. I don’t think it’s fair to do that to people. That is why I make an effort to not do that to other people ๐Ÿ˜‰ So now I am in such a funky bad mood and I cannot shake it!!!! ๐Ÿ‘ฟ

Here is the tattoo I was going to get touched up:

Left shoulder

Things Are Finally Turning Around!!!


Well it’s about time things start going in a more positive direction for me. It felt like that black cloud would follow me forever! But now that I am through my whole pregnancy ordeal I am feeling better. My household seems to be improving as well. We are finally getting ahead financially. What a good feeling. Emotionally I have been feeling good. I know it’s still early but I am hopeful that I will not fall prey to the grip of postpartum depression. All in all things are looking up :mrgreen:


My shining light, my antidepressant, my blessing

In A Mood!


I am in such a mood. I’m trying so hard not to be. But everything is bugging me. It’s like nails on a chalkboard. I am really tired so that isn’t helping. Busy Bee was up about 4 times last night (must have been all that cake lol) Plus I was up a few times on my own. I don’t want to do anything. ๐Ÿ˜ก

Trying Hard…..


And I feel like I am failing!!! I am really trying hard not to let my emotions rule my day. I am trying hard not to even feel the way I have been feeling. But I feel like I am losing the battle. I can’t stop ๐Ÿ˜ฅ Ugh…this is the last thing I want right now. The last way I need to be. Yet I find myself back at that all too familiar spot. The place I hate to be. The place I seem to find….as much as I try to avoid it! The down in the dumps nobody likes meย  (Iโ€™m gonna go eat worms) place!!! The place that I have found myself today. The place where all I want to do crawl into bed and never leave the house. The place with such overwhelming sadness I’m not sure I’ll see the end of it. The place where I find bitterness seeping out and anger rising up. The lonely place……I hate to be……yet here I am…..waiting for it to end…..as it always does…..just not as soon as I need……or want……..

Not Sure How I Feel??


Sigh…I don’t know if I’m very angry of very sad!! My “sweet” hubby was in such a mood yesterday. At first it was just a little tension when he got home from work. But I usually give him time to wind down after work. He yelled all through dinner ๐Ÿ˜ฆ First let me backtrack. Earlier in the day I let Mickey (our doggie) out the front door and off he went. It was an accident of course. I called hubby to let him know and he was mad!! But PTL that goofy dog came back about 40 minutes later. I called hubby and even tho the dog came home he was still pretty annoyed with me. So fast forward and now we’re sitting and eating dinner and hubby is in a “mood” and just being jerky. Ok whatever….he will hopefully feel better after dinner right?? So I jump on the computer. Hubby is on the couch watching Spongebob with the little ones. Hmmm…maybe we’ll have a nice night after all?? Then he starts reading over my shoulder. “What are you blogging about now?” he asks. “I’m not blogging I’m on my message board” Then he preceded to read what I’m writing. Not that I have anything to hide from him, but the board I’m on….my hubby just wouldn’t get it. It is for TTC after loss. So he finally walks away and I’m back to the post I was reading. Then I check my e-mail. My heart starts pounding and I feel a little sick. It’s from my “friend”. I was definitely not looking forward to reading that e-mail. Earlier I had “snuck” on to her blog because I was feeling very overwhelmed with thoughts of her and I couldn’t help myself ๐Ÿ˜ณ I knew she’d find out, but I did it anyway. But she was just checking up on Goober after his “episode”. But guess what?? This was when hubby decides he wants to know what I’m reading again. ๐Ÿ˜ก When I tell him it’s an e-mail and who it’s from he’s not very pleased. He tells me to not respond and to let it go. I certainly wasn’t going to tell him I was writing back and being nice about it. I wasn’t going to tell him I was touched she was checking up on Goober. I wasn’t going to tell him I wasn’t upset about the e-mail and enjoyed giving the update. No way…I was just letting him walk away. So I spend some more time on the computer…only because he’s talking under his breath (quite loudly) about me avoiding him. Why would I go sit with him when he’s that annoyed?? Plus he was avoiding me on Sunday when he played his computer game all day!! Anyway….I finally shut down the cpu and put the little ones to bed. We watch one of our shows together in tense silence. When the show is over he’s still in his “mood” I can’t remember exactly what hubby said but next thing I know I’m sitting on the couch alone and he’s in our room. I watch tv until I’m sure he’s asleep ๐Ÿ˜‰

So now it’s morning and I hear this ringing. It sounds like a cell phone but not mine. I go investigate and hubby has set the alarm for my cell and left it on a note he wrote with 2 candy bars. He apologised and said he was very sorry. He called a little while later and reiterated what he wrote in his note. He couldn’t talk long because he was working so that was that. Sigh…I know very long story short…..I’m not sure how I feel right now??? It could go either way ๐Ÿ˜ก ๐Ÿ˜ฅ I know everyone has a bad day. I’m pretty bad on my bad days ๐Ÿ˜ณ But now I feel like I have to walk on egg shells for a bit. And if I have to be honest??? I’m worried about us missing our “window” this month if this fight lingers on. I still have time before that happens……but it could go either way with hubby ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I’m not really mad at him. I’m just mad about the way he was acting. Then that makes me really sad ๐Ÿ˜ฅ I feel like my emotions are so high right now. Plus this is my first cycle after the miscarriage. So I’m sure I’m a little more hormonal then usual.

Ugh I’m in A “Mood”!!!


Any other day and I’d be loving the snow. But today it makes me mad!!! I was really looking forward to church today. Today was the start of new Sunday school classes and Communion Sunday. I still could have made church and skipped Sunday school but I just didn’t have the umph to get the kids dressed ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Now I’m in such a “mood”!! I don’t want to be…really I don’t. But I can’t seem to find a way out. I know that once I get myself into something (watching tv, reading, housework) I’ll be ok. But I’m stewing in this mood ๐Ÿ˜• And the longer I think about it the more “moody” I get ๐Ÿ˜ณ ๐Ÿ™„ Sigh….I’m gonna clean up a little…hopefully that’ll make me feel better???