A Dark & Lonely Place

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Why did everything have to change? Things were going so great for me. For the first time in a long time I was feeling settled and happy. So why did everything have to fall to sh*t? Yes the logical part of my mind knows this will pass and soon be forgotten. The feelings in me scream WHY?? Why now? Why me? Why, why, why?? I’m so angry & sad. I don’t want to feel this way. I want what I had last week. Happiness looking forward to my doctor appointment to see my baby. Now my hubby and I are fighting. My kids are sad because I’m sad. I don’t want to do anything, talk to anyone, leave the house….nothing! I actually took my phone off the hook. I tore the calendar off the fridge. It was too painful to look at. Even with the dates scribbled out I still knew. 😥 I just want my life to be as it was…….I know God has a plan and that helps to know. But it doesn’t take away these feelings…so deep, so painful, so sad, so lonely, so angry…..

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